'SUNK'en Friend'SHIP'

well....this is the result of what happens to a person who loves to sleep in class but wants to do something in order to avoid it in a class which he finds interesting but still wants something better to do

'SUNK'en FrienD'Ship'

She wasnt the most beautiful one around;
but still the one who was my smile;
Friend she was the best one;
Time immemorial though it was only a year;
All her pretty troubles,were mine to solve;
All my personal problems were hers to advise;
Though not at the forefront, i was always there;
Things seemed the best of it;
Her b'day was a months planning;
A day happy she was , or was I;
The innumerable phone calls vivid in my memory;
As though they had just happened;
Things at peak always fall down;
Ignorant of the fact as I was;
My concern turned out to be my fault;
White were my intentions,Not black;
When everyone said warn her, i said shut up to them;
And asked her to go ahead;
When i finally warned her;she didnt even say that;
She wouldn say anything after that;
Forgotten i had ,that she had an intellect too;
Maybe much mature than mine;
Trusted her i should as i did before;
But a minute's a mistake, a lifetime of remorse;
Her decisions were hers, ad not mine to advise upon;
There it broke,there it ended;
The friend'ship' just sunk;
An year of close joy,confidancy,revelry;
A moment of abrupt end;
Some say i dont deserve her friendship;
Some say she doesnt deserve mine;
As the best things turned Sour;
Octal months have passed since;
My friendship had all;
But turned my worst failure;
Lessons learnt!? i dont kno!!;
Happy she is that I know;
Moving ahead with a smile just I am...................................................


30/6/09

VIRGINITY & its perennial bias in the world around me

okay i know that this is a topic which comes under the category called as taboo.
but then why not discuss it out in the open...
i feel god has been the most inglorious and ungenerous when he decided on allocating virginity to both the sexes.

a mans if he loses his virginity is unbothered coz no1 is ever gonna find out ,
but a woman if she loses her virginity, there is a clear indication about it(for those who dont kno...this might be an above 18 post...and if ur above 18 and u still dont kno...god help u)

why this bias by god?!
why did he do this...why this partiality...
didnt he know the ramifications abt this?!
didnt he know that it would make women the weaker sex..
didnt he know how chauvinistic it would make the males around1!?
was he that dumb!?or was there a meaning to it!? i dont think so...

one of my really close friends once said to me...

he said that he would want his wife to be a virgin....but the fact was that he himself was not a virgin....so nw if he had a break up wid his gurlfriend....then!?
even then he would want his WIFE to be a virgin....thats so styupid..
then he asked me....what about me.?then i told him...that if i was a virgin i would expect my wife to be a virgin...if i wasnt...i wouldnb expect the same from her...

and he was bamboozled...and started calling me a moron...


this problem has even affected the religions...whw did mary have to be a virgin...how can mary be a virgin if she gave birth to jesus?

i firmly believe that GOD WOULD NOT BREAK HIS OWN LAQWS IN ORDER TO PROVE HE IS "GOD"....



i dont kno...but i kinda feel that the whole concept is partial and wierd....
god...in this one policy...wantedly or unwantedly made the female gender weaker...and the males superior...

there a variety of thoughts that go in mmy mind regarding this...but i guess it would not be right on my part to jot them down here....coz this issue has to be thought upon...and these thoughts experienced....

please have a thought over this topic....

regards...
confused me...

and today at 11 in the morning is vivek anna's condolence meeting....
pray for his soul(13 days since he left the mortal world along with sanchita's dad...pray for him too...r.i.p.)...

'TEARY EYED'- a tale of missed purse,an auto rikshaw and two funerals

well for starters i kno that my second post was not supposed to be this...but certain events over that past 36 hours have kind of compelled me to go into introspection and write this.....

it was around 10.30 in the morning when i had finally decided with zohran that i would meeting him opposite to our old school sboa at 11..30(which naturally means 12)...so after having a quick bath and finishing my brunch i left my house at 11.20(pretty early by my standards)...i had decided not trouble the bike for a day and thought of paing the public transport a visit which was kinda long due. as soon as i stepped out of my house , i had no idea that i it was the beginning of one of the most gloomiest 36 hours for me..as there is no straight bus to anna nagar frm my place...i caught a share auto and went to cmbt..(central moffusil bus terminus,koyembedu...asia's largest bus terminus)...which happens to be just a stop away from my place. As soon as i reached there, i was in for one rude shock. I realized that i had left my purse in my house itself and all i had was a mere 10 rs.(by this time zohran had already reached the school). so after paying 7 rs to the share auto guy, all i was left with was a mere 3 bucks!! So i decided that in case i get a bus i would catch it orr else walk back home...which would be abt 3 kms and 15 mins.well the bus did come, but then i t crossed me...i made a dash for it...suddenly the usain bolt in me came to the fore and i was as fast the motobike trinh to whiz by me.(lol..)...but then i guess the michael shumacher in the bus driver had arisen and he drove the bus at such a speed that would make even a honda unicorn whizzing at 90 kph feel shy...so..I missed the bus...then was i was walking by, an idea came into my mind that i should catc an auto rickshaw ...go home and then take the same one back to cmbt(with the purse firmly entrenched in my pockets). the total distance would have been 1 km to home(i had already walked a lot) and and 3 kms from there to cmbt...so that means a total distance 4 kms...my reasonble mind told me that the total trip should not cost more than 30 bucks or at most a pricely 40. I waved my hands and made an auto guy stop...i told himwhere i wanted to go...The bloody moronical asshole asked my 70 bucks for the whole trip....i just walked away from that place...then that moron comes again and stops and stats pilfering insults at me....ll the oths devs puls type abuses(tamil equivalent of english biggies)...i still kept walking awa from that place.,...and then he tried to hit me with his hand...i just caught his hand...and then began my rajnikanth style STARE....he just drove away from that place pilfering a few more abuses...i had already lost 5 minutes in that bargain....then after i going home i finally reach home anna nagar.....at a good 12.30...which is almost an hour behind sched...there me and zohran hang out for a while before heading to our usual hangout ..cafe coffee day or ccd...i recieved a call in the meanwhile...and i didnt pick it up...it was from pratyush....i was kinda surprised...coz that guy rarely calls me...so when i tried to return his call ...but his phone was outta range...so i entered ccd thinking it was not an inportant missed call to worry about...after spending about an hour there...me and zohran left or nokia carse so that i could give my phone for service(bledy hell!! gonna cozt me 12oo bucks for repairs)...after which he dropped me in my house...stayed for a while and left ....

it was around 4.30 now and i had to leave for my youth wing...CHINMAYA YUVA KENDRA....i was supposed to attend a meeting with a top management consultant who happend to be a mission member himself...the meeting was regarding the MARH-CHENNAI FAMILY QUIZ.. a quiz where more than 1 LAKH families would be taking part and in the process increase their family harmony...being 1 of the twenty team leaders involved in the whole process...it was kinda interesting meeiting new ppl and honing my skills..(CHYK has taught me a lot in the past few years)....so when i reached the CHINMAYA HERITAGE CENTRE,harrington road,chetpet which happended to be the hub of all chyk activities...i never knew i was in for one of the biggest shocks of my recent past...or should i say 1 of the 2 big shocks i would be facing in the the next few hours...
Sanchita...who happened to be one of the first persons i got to know at chyk...her father had passed away in the morning...this news really took some time to sink in...and its then i realized PRATYUSH's call about 3 hous back must have been regarding this...since i was among the few ppl who stay close to her house ...he would have wanted to inform me the news...shit man...i should have picked up that call...i immediately messaged samyuk and ranit since i was pretty much sure that they would be at sanchita's place as they were pretty close to her and also styed nearby....and conveyed my condolences.....during my scheduled meeting ..i recieved a text from samyuk asking me to come over...so once the meeting got over which was abt 8 in the night i dashed or her place....once i was there...i just wasnt me...i always had this thing in me...i cannot...i just cannot face ppl who have lost there dear ones...call it cowardice..or i may say that its coz that i feel for them a lot and share their pain...so i asked samyuk to come out and take me in...once in side..i just couldn take the scene over there...i really wanted to burst out crying ut then the tears just managed not to trickel dow....sanchita was there...i couldn go and speak to her...i just nodded my head on seeing her and bowed down...i guess ya...this is cowardice...then i went on to meet m other fiends who already been there...rinky pooja and samarpana were the others who hadbeen there apart from ranit and samyuk...we just stayed the night there trying to cheer up sanchita in the process...and i on my part had begun the introspection...we had recently staged a play called DEATH. we showed tht a person dies when he has to and nothing can change it. and that FUNERAL was REAL FUN....where a soul meets eternity after fulfilling its purpose of living in the world...and in case its vasanas ...its strong desires had not been completed...it takes a rebirth...as someone else...somewhere else....but then were we able to apply thqat logic here practically...i dint kno the answer...i could see ppl crying...i could share their pain..infacts tear are trickling down my ears as i rite this....old women coming down and sharing thier grief...uncles standing by...trying to control their emotions....and whenver a phone call came... sanchita would again burst into tears..this was really a bit too much too handle for the poor gurl...she had alway been a stong gurl...she had pretty strong views...ad to see her breaking down made me cry too...but then i quicklywiped them off before any1 seeing it....in the morning...at around 5...we never knew that we would one more shock in store for us...vivek anna..who was ram anna's brother(both highly acive menbers of chyk)...had passed away in the nite...due to a massive heart attack...he was just 29...this shock was kinda tuf to handle for sanchita and pooja..who were pretty close to vivek anna...sanchita couldn take it...we couldn take it....2 shocks in a single day.. y te hell did this have to happen...why did god have 2 good souls away from us!?...we decided that once the rituals were over at sanchita's place...we would move straight to vivek anna's place...it was really a bit hard for sanchita and pooja...i felt like crying...wished god could reverse time..god...god...y did u have to be so rude.....y god ...y?

once the rituals were over at her place...we moved on to chetpet...vivek anna's place...every1 includin shankar...who came down from bengaluru...went over...even there...i couldn go and talk to ram anna...his eyes were dreary...his younger brother had passed away...i had always considered ram anna as the epitome of manhood...and the way he handled all the visiting ppl mesmerized me...its just that...i couldn go and talk to him...just the head nodding again...samarpana ranit and samyuk were consoling pooja who was really hurt....meanwhile i met the other chyks who had been here since the morning....again i was introspecting death .....i wish i could really share what i concluded....but i guess they just dont translate into words...maybe 1 has to experience the pain himself and observe...on a personal note...i really liked vivek anna a lot...during one of our trips(which happens to be my only 1 till now...courtesy exams)...he had shoed that wondeful camera of his...and he was really gr8 at taking pics....and he was real fun to be around...it was aroun 3.15 when swamiji (our youth wing head) finally arrived...he had flew down all the way from pune once he heard the news of these deaths...when he me ram anna and hugged him tight...........something happened which i never thought would...the man had broken, down...he was crying...his loud roars of unhappiness and helplessness at the loss of younger brother filled the air....i just couldn take it...and i for the first time in 24 hours...fianlly broke down....and i started crying..i couldn see ram anna crying like that..i will nver forget that scene in my life ever....i took me abt 5 to 10 mins to get back and help the ppl with proceedings....one they had taken the body away for cremation....we decided that we would leave our homes...and decide for the later ...later....
midway to my journey home(a good 24 hrs plus since i left it)...my tank beacame empty....and i pushed it for abt 2.5-3 kms before reaching the pump..all the way dfrom ANNA ARCH to the KOYEMBEDU junction...and i finally reached home at abt 5 in the evening...

I WILL NEVER FORGET THE PAST 36 HOURS OF MY LIFE....


P.S...it is said BUDDIHSM celebraTes death...i am planning to research a bit on it....


ALL NAMES WRITTEN HERE ARE NOT CORRECT AND HAVE BEEN CHANGED....

ThE InDiAn PoLiTics!!!

The Indian politics....is nothing but PORNOGRAPHY , FISH MARKET,OPPORTUNISM & CIRCUS PUT TOGETHER!!!

ya thats right....alL one does do is sell ones body or conscience for a certain amount of bucks....do trading for votes power and seats by the black money...and runs amok without taking credibilty even for the words' sake...

PORNOGRAPHY:
so what does one do in pornography?!?!if u happen to be one of those pure ones who doesn even know what it means...fret not...coz thats what happens in our famous indian politics. in pornography we have women strutting thier stuff and getting the hell f**ked out of themselves. all this for the pleasure of the person watchin this on screen while keeping one of his hands busy....

now you might be thinking what does this have to do with politics?!?

in polictics ...just replace the performer with a politician,. all he does is act. so that he gets the money by fooling the general public....well its not that most of the politicians dont have a conscience ...

they do have it...but they sell it of...just like a pornstar or prostitute sells off her body...these guys sell of thier conscience...

according to me and my imperfect intellect....a politician is supposed to join a party which has ideals similar to his....maybe change his party once in a while if he thinks that his ideals within the party have been compromised...

but is that the case with some of the politicians?!?!

lets take this case of a particular politician from karnataka...believe me...in his entire political career he has joined as many partires as the fingers in one hand...and that to so frequently that one might be mistaken that it might be a different person in a defferent party....but my research always proved it that it was da same person....

so what is this...aint that a case of sale of his conscience?!?


FISH MARKET:

well i am a vegitarian.....so i haven visited a fish market yet...but thanks to my skl teachers...i kno what a fish market means...

the parliament in the last few years has become the biggest symbol of UNRULINESS in the country...with so many forced adjournments by the people seated over there....i just feel agonized seeing my dad's tax money flowing to the gutter...it takes a hella lot amount of money to run a parliament....but where is the time for running it..


PROTESTING AT THE SPEAKER'S CHAIR IS THE LAMEST PROTEST I HAVE EvER SEEN...IF UM MORONS WANT TO HAVE A DHARNA...WHY DONT U DO IT OUTSIDE THE MARKET...OOPS...SORRY... THE PARLIAMENT...

I seriosly wish those good olden days of the indian parliament are bacek...

and i guess with the upa haveing a comfortable majority....and the left nowhere in right left or centre to disturb the economic reforms.....think it should be easy if not a breeze for the parliament to function..

OPPURTNITISM:
this is almost same as the pornographgy section...people chagin parties...parties changing alliances in the coalition era....all by compromisin their ideals.....

i just dont understand how a national party can join hands with a regional party which it had accused of being part of a plan of assasinating its revered leader....

i just don understand how a party can be a part of three different alliances in three different years(consecutive ones)

THE CASH VOR VOTES scandal did leave a mark on me...it was the most shameful event in the history of indian democracy....

AND it was also a case of opportunitism....


CIRCUS:

man o man!!...this is seriously the most funny part of my inaugral blog....what happens in a circus...well we all kno...most of us would have been to one...people doing hillarious stuff...

so when parties annoint thier sUns or daughters as thier legal heirs ....we the educated ppl are supposed to accept this circus...but thenthier is nothing we can do...

we dont even kno whether these dynastical heirs even have the talent and the power required to take over the reins...
one exception is there...i must say this....RAHUL GANDHI DID PROVE HIUS METTLE IN THE ELECTIONS...he was a major factor in the congress' victory...

and ya one more hillarity ....

there are certain ppl here in politics...whose only claim to fame is that their grand parents had been great leaders....so there they are...being sidekicks to the majr national players now
...a better word...poonchadi...or chamcha....
in my language...MORONS....irrespective of the gender....(wow...i would loe to take names here)


but i do salute those people who have made a mark ...and proved thier mettle...inspite being from a political background...and not taking things lightly.....


the SILVER LINING:

OH YEA....THERE DOES EXIST ONE...these new crop of politicians....the younger generation...does make me smile with hope..

P.S...This is sort of a disclaimer...i aint pointing fingers to any person directly....but...this is what the confused indian thinks...and this is what many othr confused indians think...



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