This is a story...give it a title...

whenever things is life are not going as planned...one always has two ways to go forward...either keep trynig or say WTF and quit!!
this is what 24 abhukh shrivastava was faced with....he was a calm guy who never thought doing what he wanted to do would land him in what he never wanted to do....LOVE!!!...

thats what he did...he loved a woman so badly that she had become his sole aim of life..right from the first day he saw her he knew she would be the one who would make him cpomplete...be his better half...but as luck would have it...things were definetly not destined to beasy...

he was a guy of t...a guy wid his mba degree from one of the Iims earning abt arnd 80 grand a month..he had practicall anything that he had wanted...and she was something that he wasnted to achieve...te only thing he had not yet conquered....

she was Riya..Riya saxena...a girl who had just joined his office as his deputy...and from the first had been close to him....sitting in the same cabin didnt make thins easy for abhyuk...he was elder to her b abt 4 yrs...but he tried hard to make her feel comfortable...make her interact with him at an inter peronal level...
but then she had taken him as her mentor.. a man whom she looked upto...a guy who wil guide her and be her beacon as she would pass through the murky corporate world...

das had passed...days became weeks...it was high time abhyuk thought something must be done....he stalled...wondering whether he sould do what he was bout to...he had never done this before...he had alwas been an introvert..and he didnt want to hurt riya at any cost....he asked her out for dinner...riya's jaw dropped....and her it opened ...trying to say a few words...only to close again...she didnt know how to react...abhyuk realized he might have messed up...just as he was about to to apologize and set matters to ease...she said OK.....she was read for the dinner....abhyuk was stunned....he couldn believe what he just heard....it was decided for 8 in the night....

he was dressed like a gentleman...a man an gurl would would fall for...she was looking like a princess in her black gown that was tantalizingly sensuous for any man's eyes....

the dinner wasnt the main issue here at the hotel..which happpened to be among the finest ones in the town...their eyes finall met...it seemed straight right for him to tell her right there that she was the one for him...how much he loved her.....even her eyes were looking at him...she was obviously nervous....she smiled at thin and started looking at him with a reazization that he mat more than just a boss or a mentor....a man who would keep her happy for the rest of his life...it was comforting for both of them...

on the dance floor...it was teh jazz night...arms in arms...looking at each other...they danced...never knowing what was happening around them now...it was as if time had stood still...and only one thing mattered..them...love was in the air...maybe she had reazilzed it to...boith brought thier face forward...it was as if the kiss had been a prewritten destiny then...but it didnt...she laid her down on his chest....something that meant more then to him than a kiss...and they were still dancin....holding each other tightly n one othe's arms...

at the end when it was time to drop her off...he decided to stop the car about a kilometre from her house....and decided to walk her home...stealing a few extra moments with her in this bargain...

walking had never been such a pleasure for both of them...but it still semed differnt..silence defined the mood....but suddenly..."I MIGHT BE GETTING ENGAGED THIS WEEK..."....riya didnt have to say that...but then abhyuk had to know...

he just stopped....he couldn take it....what did she just!!? "what....are u serious!?"...ya i am...my parents are coming tommorow...and i would be going back to delhi tommorow for a week's time..we are going to ma dad's old friends place...its his son ....i had apllied for a weeks leave...remember!?...

she had...and it was for this reason abhyuk had asked her out today....his inner voice had told him if not today...thn never....but guess it had slso for got to tell him that there was also a shock in store for him....
"oh good...congrats...whose the lucky guy..."...his voice disguised his distress..."i dont kno actually...but except fot the fact that he shares our name"...

the world had fallen apart..,how more unlucky could he be....his name...bu not him...was that a solace he was supposed to live wifth the rest of his life....

his phone rung then...'michalel jackson's all i wanna say is that they dont relly cared about us' was blared loudyl...."hey abhyuk....its dad here...i want you to be here in delhi in a couple of days time/...no ifs or buts..."..."but dad...i got a lot of work here('delhi..no not now...especially when she mite be getting engaged there with my namesake')...".."you will be here...thats all"...and he hung up...his dad had never been so rude to him...but then they never had been on good terms for sme time now...

her house had come...he wanted to kiss her...just say it out...nut then wthat would just make him a loser....just then unexpectedly.....she landed a peck on his cheek...it was his lips...but then it deflected towards his cheek...he was sure aboout...he smiled...thats the least he could do now...

he had had his souvenier ....or maybe the final nail in the coffin of his love life....


THREE DAYS LATER:

abhyuk had finally reached delhi...and was sipping coffee...thinking about here...where she would be...what se would be doing...she was in the same city...he wanted to speak to her...his hand reached for the phone....but he just couldn....

that evening...his dad's lan had been revealed to him...
his dad's friend's family was visiting him...and he expected his son to interact with his friend's daughter....

he texted her'maybe even i am getting engaged'....and then he finally gathered up the courage. to call her upjas he was abt to call her...he recieved a beep beep..a text' i am not asking you who the klucky gurl is...but just wish i was that lucky gurl'....

he couldn believe it....
he called her....maybe there was still a chance....maybe they could convince both their parents....he waitd for her to pick up...but then he was hearing a ringtone somewhere nearby...he could have sweared rthat he had heard it somehere else...it was the same as ria's...it was coming from his hall..and riya still wasnt picking up..

there in the hall..stould RAJ SAXENA's family....he,his wife JYOTHI..........................................................................and his daughter RIYA...

he could he beleve what he saw...riya was there...she was stunned....shocked..,..surprised...but happy....there parents wanted them to marry each other!!?...how small the world can be...

how comehe never knew his dads friend raj saxena....was riya's dad...!?

but then it was not the time for these questions now....


they both were left togerther in a rooom to interact with each other...get to know each other well(thats an old indian tradition)...


and then the were alone...

just one thing happened.....they kissed...as passionatre as they could be....it was the eruption of enotions.....as if there was noo tommorow...

it went on and on and on...the were finally one now...


and there parents were happily discussing engagement and marriage plans now over cup of tea...while there children were still engrossed in telling each other how much they loved each other...

Clint Eastwood-The Man..a 1 man industry

hey ppl...i am a very very very very very big fan of clint eastwood ever since i saw his movie THE GOOD,THE BAD AND THE UGLY for the first time around eight years back(i hope my memory serves me right) I still remember that day when dad asked me to watch this movie since this happens to be one of his favorite movies'. and since i was new to chennai and no better thing to do...i sat down and watchd it...and my oh m...what a movie it was....especially the soundtrack...or the last scene invloving the classical mexican standoff....

I have seen quite a few of his movies since then and i thought i could write a post on the ones i loved a lot per se...

the latest one i saw is GRAN TORINO...the movie was release in late dec2008 in the u.s.a. and in jan 2009 in the rest of the world...(unfortunately...i dont think it released here in india)...i will come to this one later...

the best part about this guy is that...that not only does he acts in his movies...but also...directs ...co-produces and also scores the music for most of his movies...which according to me is a great feat(kamal haasan...he is the only one i can remember back home who is the closest in terms of equalling his feat)

THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY(1966)....


This movie starring Clint Eastwood as the good guy...LEE VAN CLEEFE as the bad guy...and ELI WALLACH as the Ugly( basically means he is a mix of both good and bad...and predominantly funny)

the story is that these guys are after a gold treasure buried somewhere in the caves by the two warring armies in the american civil war...

for more info...

check this out..
WIKIPEDIA LINK-THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY

MILLION DOLLAR BABY:

this movie stars clint eastwood, morgan freeman and hillary swank. this movie won four oscars. i guess most of u would have heard about this movie. iut came out in 2004 and i watched this in 2005. this is the story of how an amateur like hillary swank wants to work hard and prove herself as a successful boxer....and how an old trainer ...successful but down and out clint eastwood helps her in achieving this goal...amazing acting b the cast...love this movie....check it out..

WIKIPEDIA LIKE-MILLION DOLLA BABY(2004)
UNFORGIVEN(1992):

This movie got him three oscars...best picture...best actor ...and best director(told u...he is a genius)

Unforgiven is a 1992 Western film produced and directed by Clint Eastwood with a screenplay written by David Webb Peoples. The film tells the story of William Munny, an aging and retired gunslinger who takes on one more job years after he had hung up his guns and turned to farming. A dark Western that deals frankly with the uglier aspects of violence and the myth of the Old West, it stars Eastwood in the lead role, along with Gene Hackman, Morgan Freeman, Richard Harris, Jaimz Woolvett, Saul Rubinek and Frances Fisher.

Gene Hackman btw happens to be among one of m favorites...also love hos performances in other movies such as behind enemy lines....under suspicion...crimson tide...etc

WIKIPEDIA LINK-UNFORGIVEN

CHANGELING:

This is a movie which was directed by him but he didnt act in it...angelina jolie gt the nomination for best actress in the oscars for this movie...a realyl great movie...which touches ur heart...its abt christine collins and her searching for her son who had been kidnapped b a paedophile...

and the corrupt los angeles police department...and how the give her back a kid which is not hers...i felt a tear drop down my eyes at the end of the movie...

i have seen this movie as well as the reader which stars kate winslet for whch she won the oscar...i think angelina deserved the oscar...and according to me the reader was kinda a depressing sort of a story(well executed tho) with nothing but total frontal and back nudity in the first forty five minutes...

WIKIPEDIA LINK-CHANGELING


LETTERS FORM IWO JIMA....FLAGS OF OUR FATHERS:


these are two different movies...but u can call them sister movies.. .both are based upon the same topic...the battle of iwojima...IWO JIMA is an island which was captured by the americans during the wwII...


Letters from iwojima showed the JAPANESE aspect of t stor...KEN WANTABE plays brilliantly as the japanese general...this movie is in japanese...ya i said it rite...a hollywood movie in japanase with english subtitles....i


Flags of our fathers showed basically the american aspect of the story....it showd the lifes of the 6-7 men who had become the so called "HEROES" after li fting that flag...pardon me for using the word 'so called' because only when u see this movie will u realize what i mean to say...



LETTERS FRIM IWO JIMA HAPPENS TO BE THE BETTER OF THE TWO MOVIES ACCORDING TO ME......these movies were released a couple of months apart in 2006...


WIKIPEDIA LINK-LETTERS FROM IWO JIMA

WIKIPEDIA LINK-FLAGS OF OUR FATHERS


GRAN TORINO:

this is the movie is w now...its the story of walt who is a ,man who is hated by everyone and especially hates his chinky neighbours...how he manages his life after his wife dies...his fights with his married children...and he gets on to the friendly terms wit his chinky neiggbors...and how he gets rid of the local gangs...


honestly...take this word me from for this...a master piece...the oscar guys were crazy not give it a single nomination...maybe they wanted just 1 clint wastwood movie to be nominated...(changeling)...the ocar morons dint even nominate the dark knight and wall-e in the best movie caegor...and the award went to a bullshit film like slumdog millionaire....

WIKIPEDIA LINK-GRAN TORINO

i have seen several more of his movies...but these were the best ones according to me...

there is this one more film which i want u ppl to see...

i haven seen this yet...will do tomoro nite....MYSTIC RIVER...sean penn won the best actor for this....directed by clint...


hope u enjoyed this post...and hope the links help u...


and hey 1 of my friends was telling mt that there is sme problem which is nt allowing him and others to comment...some javascript problem in the submit page...in case it persists...do temme in my orkut or fb page...

My perfect love

this is a short post....



What do i think about my perfect love!!?!?


ok this would have rounded up our eyeballs till now....

before u read this...perfect love=the gurl i would love to marry....
not my girlfriends..(anyways i dont have 1 nw...pretty happy wid dat...the past sux man)

she should be the epitome of beaut...i kno some ppl ...some of m friends who sa that beauty doesn matter as long as the gurls heart is good...

but i always tell them..my gurl needs to be the epitome of beauty..a the vua the best...deepika padukone type...she needs to have great face...thats the first thing i always attracts(or detracts) me in an gurl...the face...

if she's got a great face...gorgeous type...the one with great eyes...luscious lips...and that cahrming smile to go along with it...chances are that she might have a great heart too..

and one thing i want to say is that she should be BEAUTY WITH BRAINS...i kno thats rare...beauty with brains!!?i bet u must be thinking that i am joking....but he i kno am not...i kno its rare to find such a gurl....but...then
arent diamonds rare!?(am not talking abt the jewellery shop)

she would have that sweet voice...the one which i would love to drown in...her eyes...should mesmerize and tantalize me like wine...lol(eg..deepika padukone)



she should be able of carrying herself with grace...confident abt the stuff she does..

in short she would be the one would love me the most...kick me up my a$$ the most when i do wrong stuff...her shoulder would be the one i wud like to lean upon in times of despair...she would be my best friend....she would be the most beautiful gurl in rhe world...the sweetest...the cutest..the one who would be mine...

hey i just realized that this write sounds like a frikking matrimonial add...

next post 2mrw...haven written for a gap i guess...

VARUN GANDHI AnD hIS Z+ SeCuRitY-DOES HE DESERVE IT!?

hey ppl!!...am back after a week of hiatus....

this time its about a news headline which i saw in tv now which made me write down my thoughts here...

Its about the Z+ category being provided to VARUN GANDHI as he is under serious threat from the chota shakeel (what a name for a DON...chota shakeel..chota what...name or that ding dong...well btw he is one of the bastards responsible for 1992 blasts in mumbai)


For people who dont know about varun gandhi and who he his.....

here's the wikipedia link....he is the great grand son of jawaharlal nehru(a person i hate ),cousin of rahul gandhhi, son of sanjay gandhi and maneka gandhi(a former model who married indira's son sanjay and now is a fanatical animal rights activist....lol...fanatic coz she once was against laloo(then railway minister) idea of earthen pots in trains saying it would lead to mass death of microbes and earthworms)


WIKIPEDIA-VARUN GANDHI


now that u know what and who he his...letme tell you how came into the limelight...as a gandhi scion he had to be in the media limelight by default....

He contested the recently held general elections in INDIA from PILIBHIT, a constituency in UTAR PRADESH...

HIS RISE TO (MIS)FAME::::

Well, actually before starting lemme tell you all that one side of me doesn respect that guy...so i am going to address him as an idiot...
this idiot was giving a speech in his constituency on relegious (in)tolerance...
and this is what he said...

"I will cut any hand that attacks hindus"
"i will cut the head of muslims who attack hindus"


YOUTUBE LINK....


He said all that...he tried to create communal misharmony...well okay maybe the hindus of that area were suffering under the muslims...but this is no way to stir emotions up on the eve of the world.s biggest exertion of franchise-the indian elections...
this definetly would have got thos idiots in that don gang rackled up...and choto shakeel promptly sent his 6 sharp shooters to kick this guy's arse(who were cught by the delhi police a couple of days back)...

His mom MANEKA GANDHI tried to stir maternal emotions up ...by saying.....BCHARA LADKA...BECHARA BACCHA..aur kitna pareshaan karoge usey(POOR GUY...POOOR BABY....HOW MUCH MORE WOULD THE GOVERNMENT TROUBLE HIM)
these were the sentences said by the mother of 29 YR OLD BABY OR INFANT(ok..ya he does look plum like a kid for a 29 yr old) when he was put in jail by the state government under the national security act...(which was touted by many as a misuse of power)

I am a hindu...and my best friend is a muslim....and such statements by people really bother me and many indians out there....




but but but...here comes the other side...

things were seriously going wrong in pilibhit...according to many...hindus were rellly sufer9ing there.....and so...shouldn these remarks be taken as innocent ones!? and maybe he was just an emotional hindu who got caried away.....and plus our media always has this habbit of blowing things out of proportion...
check these two sites

http://www.varungandhi.org/
http://www.varungandhi.net.in/

these websites may give an insight on this side of the stiory...



SO as it is always said...EVERY COIN HAS TWO SIDES

these two sides have kinda confused me...my former view is the stronger(wrote more lines abt it....lol)



so ppl...what do you think...does he really deseve the Z+ security.....

'SUNK'en Friend'SHIP'

well....this is the result of what happens to a person who loves to sleep in class but wants to do something in order to avoid it in a class which he finds interesting but still wants something better to do

'SUNK'en FrienD'Ship'

She wasnt the most beautiful one around;
but still the one who was my smile;
Friend she was the best one;
Time immemorial though it was only a year;
All her pretty troubles,were mine to solve;
All my personal problems were hers to advise;
Though not at the forefront, i was always there;
Things seemed the best of it;
Her b'day was a months planning;
A day happy she was , or was I;
The innumerable phone calls vivid in my memory;
As though they had just happened;
Things at peak always fall down;
Ignorant of the fact as I was;
My concern turned out to be my fault;
White were my intentions,Not black;
When everyone said warn her, i said shut up to them;
And asked her to go ahead;
When i finally warned her;she didnt even say that;
She wouldn say anything after that;
Forgotten i had ,that she had an intellect too;
Maybe much mature than mine;
Trusted her i should as i did before;
But a minute's a mistake, a lifetime of remorse;
Her decisions were hers, ad not mine to advise upon;
There it broke,there it ended;
The friend'ship' just sunk;
An year of close joy,confidancy,revelry;
A moment of abrupt end;
Some say i dont deserve her friendship;
Some say she doesnt deserve mine;
As the best things turned Sour;
Octal months have passed since;
My friendship had all;
But turned my worst failure;
Lessons learnt!? i dont kno!!;
Happy she is that I know;
Moving ahead with a smile just I am...................................................


30/6/09

VIRGINITY & its perennial bias in the world around me

okay i know that this is a topic which comes under the category called as taboo.
but then why not discuss it out in the open...
i feel god has been the most inglorious and ungenerous when he decided on allocating virginity to both the sexes.

a mans if he loses his virginity is unbothered coz no1 is ever gonna find out ,
but a woman if she loses her virginity, there is a clear indication about it(for those who dont kno...this might be an above 18 post...and if ur above 18 and u still dont kno...god help u)

why this bias by god?!
why did he do this...why this partiality...
didnt he know the ramifications abt this?!
didnt he know that it would make women the weaker sex..
didnt he know how chauvinistic it would make the males around1!?
was he that dumb!?or was there a meaning to it!? i dont think so...

one of my really close friends once said to me...

he said that he would want his wife to be a virgin....but the fact was that he himself was not a virgin....so nw if he had a break up wid his gurlfriend....then!?
even then he would want his WIFE to be a virgin....thats so styupid..
then he asked me....what about me.?then i told him...that if i was a virgin i would expect my wife to be a virgin...if i wasnt...i wouldnb expect the same from her...

and he was bamboozled...and started calling me a moron...


this problem has even affected the religions...whw did mary have to be a virgin...how can mary be a virgin if she gave birth to jesus?

i firmly believe that GOD WOULD NOT BREAK HIS OWN LAQWS IN ORDER TO PROVE HE IS "GOD"....



i dont kno...but i kinda feel that the whole concept is partial and wierd....
god...in this one policy...wantedly or unwantedly made the female gender weaker...and the males superior...

there a variety of thoughts that go in mmy mind regarding this...but i guess it would not be right on my part to jot them down here....coz this issue has to be thought upon...and these thoughts experienced....

please have a thought over this topic....

regards...
confused me...

and today at 11 in the morning is vivek anna's condolence meeting....
pray for his soul(13 days since he left the mortal world along with sanchita's dad...pray for him too...r.i.p.)...

'TEARY EYED'- a tale of missed purse,an auto rikshaw and two funerals

well for starters i kno that my second post was not supposed to be this...but certain events over that past 36 hours have kind of compelled me to go into introspection and write this.....

it was around 10.30 in the morning when i had finally decided with zohran that i would meeting him opposite to our old school sboa at 11..30(which naturally means 12)...so after having a quick bath and finishing my brunch i left my house at 11.20(pretty early by my standards)...i had decided not trouble the bike for a day and thought of paing the public transport a visit which was kinda long due. as soon as i stepped out of my house , i had no idea that i it was the beginning of one of the most gloomiest 36 hours for me..as there is no straight bus to anna nagar frm my place...i caught a share auto and went to cmbt..(central moffusil bus terminus,koyembedu...asia's largest bus terminus)...which happens to be just a stop away from my place. As soon as i reached there, i was in for one rude shock. I realized that i had left my purse in my house itself and all i had was a mere 10 rs.(by this time zohran had already reached the school). so after paying 7 rs to the share auto guy, all i was left with was a mere 3 bucks!! So i decided that in case i get a bus i would catch it orr else walk back home...which would be abt 3 kms and 15 mins.well the bus did come, but then i t crossed me...i made a dash for it...suddenly the usain bolt in me came to the fore and i was as fast the motobike trinh to whiz by me.(lol..)...but then i guess the michael shumacher in the bus driver had arisen and he drove the bus at such a speed that would make even a honda unicorn whizzing at 90 kph feel shy...so..I missed the bus...then was i was walking by, an idea came into my mind that i should catc an auto rickshaw ...go home and then take the same one back to cmbt(with the purse firmly entrenched in my pockets). the total distance would have been 1 km to home(i had already walked a lot) and and 3 kms from there to cmbt...so that means a total distance 4 kms...my reasonble mind told me that the total trip should not cost more than 30 bucks or at most a pricely 40. I waved my hands and made an auto guy stop...i told himwhere i wanted to go...The bloody moronical asshole asked my 70 bucks for the whole trip....i just walked away from that place...then that moron comes again and stops and stats pilfering insults at me....ll the oths devs puls type abuses(tamil equivalent of english biggies)...i still kept walking awa from that place.,...and then he tried to hit me with his hand...i just caught his hand...and then began my rajnikanth style STARE....he just drove away from that place pilfering a few more abuses...i had already lost 5 minutes in that bargain....then after i going home i finally reach home anna nagar.....at a good 12.30...which is almost an hour behind sched...there me and zohran hang out for a while before heading to our usual hangout ..cafe coffee day or ccd...i recieved a call in the meanwhile...and i didnt pick it up...it was from pratyush....i was kinda surprised...coz that guy rarely calls me...so when i tried to return his call ...but his phone was outta range...so i entered ccd thinking it was not an inportant missed call to worry about...after spending about an hour there...me and zohran left or nokia carse so that i could give my phone for service(bledy hell!! gonna cozt me 12oo bucks for repairs)...after which he dropped me in my house...stayed for a while and left ....

it was around 4.30 now and i had to leave for my youth wing...CHINMAYA YUVA KENDRA....i was supposed to attend a meeting with a top management consultant who happend to be a mission member himself...the meeting was regarding the MARH-CHENNAI FAMILY QUIZ.. a quiz where more than 1 LAKH families would be taking part and in the process increase their family harmony...being 1 of the twenty team leaders involved in the whole process...it was kinda interesting meeiting new ppl and honing my skills..(CHYK has taught me a lot in the past few years)....so when i reached the CHINMAYA HERITAGE CENTRE,harrington road,chetpet which happended to be the hub of all chyk activities...i never knew i was in for one of the biggest shocks of my recent past...or should i say 1 of the 2 big shocks i would be facing in the the next few hours...
Sanchita...who happened to be one of the first persons i got to know at chyk...her father had passed away in the morning...this news really took some time to sink in...and its then i realized PRATYUSH's call about 3 hous back must have been regarding this...since i was among the few ppl who stay close to her house ...he would have wanted to inform me the news...shit man...i should have picked up that call...i immediately messaged samyuk and ranit since i was pretty much sure that they would be at sanchita's place as they were pretty close to her and also styed nearby....and conveyed my condolences.....during my scheduled meeting ..i recieved a text from samyuk asking me to come over...so once the meeting got over which was abt 8 in the night i dashed or her place....once i was there...i just wasnt me...i always had this thing in me...i cannot...i just cannot face ppl who have lost there dear ones...call it cowardice..or i may say that its coz that i feel for them a lot and share their pain...so i asked samyuk to come out and take me in...once in side..i just couldn take the scene over there...i really wanted to burst out crying ut then the tears just managed not to trickel dow....sanchita was there...i couldn go and speak to her...i just nodded my head on seeing her and bowed down...i guess ya...this is cowardice...then i went on to meet m other fiends who already been there...rinky pooja and samarpana were the others who hadbeen there apart from ranit and samyuk...we just stayed the night there trying to cheer up sanchita in the process...and i on my part had begun the introspection...we had recently staged a play called DEATH. we showed tht a person dies when he has to and nothing can change it. and that FUNERAL was REAL FUN....where a soul meets eternity after fulfilling its purpose of living in the world...and in case its vasanas ...its strong desires had not been completed...it takes a rebirth...as someone else...somewhere else....but then were we able to apply thqat logic here practically...i dint kno the answer...i could see ppl crying...i could share their pain..infacts tear are trickling down my ears as i rite this....old women coming down and sharing thier grief...uncles standing by...trying to control their emotions....and whenver a phone call came... sanchita would again burst into tears..this was really a bit too much too handle for the poor gurl...she had alway been a stong gurl...she had pretty strong views...ad to see her breaking down made me cry too...but then i quicklywiped them off before any1 seeing it....in the morning...at around 5...we never knew that we would one more shock in store for us...vivek anna..who was ram anna's brother(both highly acive menbers of chyk)...had passed away in the nite...due to a massive heart attack...he was just 29...this shock was kinda tuf to handle for sanchita and pooja..who were pretty close to vivek anna...sanchita couldn take it...we couldn take it....2 shocks in a single day.. y te hell did this have to happen...why did god have 2 good souls away from us!?...we decided that once the rituals were over at sanchita's place...we would move straight to vivek anna's place...it was really a bit hard for sanchita and pooja...i felt like crying...wished god could reverse time..god...god...y did u have to be so rude.....y god ...y?

once the rituals were over at her place...we moved on to chetpet...vivek anna's place...every1 includin shankar...who came down from bengaluru...went over...even there...i couldn go and talk to ram anna...his eyes were dreary...his younger brother had passed away...i had always considered ram anna as the epitome of manhood...and the way he handled all the visiting ppl mesmerized me...its just that...i couldn go and talk to him...just the head nodding again...samarpana ranit and samyuk were consoling pooja who was really hurt....meanwhile i met the other chyks who had been here since the morning....again i was introspecting death .....i wish i could really share what i concluded....but i guess they just dont translate into words...maybe 1 has to experience the pain himself and observe...on a personal note...i really liked vivek anna a lot...during one of our trips(which happens to be my only 1 till now...courtesy exams)...he had shoed that wondeful camera of his...and he was really gr8 at taking pics....and he was real fun to be around...it was aroun 3.15 when swamiji (our youth wing head) finally arrived...he had flew down all the way from pune once he heard the news of these deaths...when he me ram anna and hugged him tight...........something happened which i never thought would...the man had broken, down...he was crying...his loud roars of unhappiness and helplessness at the loss of younger brother filled the air....i just couldn take it...and i for the first time in 24 hours...fianlly broke down....and i started crying..i couldn see ram anna crying like that..i will nver forget that scene in my life ever....i took me abt 5 to 10 mins to get back and help the ppl with proceedings....one they had taken the body away for cremation....we decided that we would leave our homes...and decide for the later ...later....
midway to my journey home(a good 24 hrs plus since i left it)...my tank beacame empty....and i pushed it for abt 2.5-3 kms before reaching the pump..all the way dfrom ANNA ARCH to the KOYEMBEDU junction...and i finally reached home at abt 5 in the evening...

I WILL NEVER FORGET THE PAST 36 HOURS OF MY LIFE....


P.S...it is said BUDDIHSM celebraTes death...i am planning to research a bit on it....


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