The CoNfUsEd InDiaN

Love Breakups Zindagi ...........................

2011-10-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

Love Breakups Zindagi (no….its got nothing to do with the movie plus I haven’t seen it either)
Well, this is something most of us would have gone through. Love they say happens once in a lifetime. But then if it is true then why does a break up happen?
Before I start, this post goes on the assumption that the relationships I am talking about are the one involving true love and not the timepass ones.
Love as good as it would have been guess has a direct impact on the breakup if it may occur.
Assuming most have been in a relationship before and that the chosen fortunate ones are quite who haven’t had a break up ever, most of us still would have thoughts related to that part of life which would have impacted us deeply.
Every relationship that we would have been is something unique and none of them would have been same to each other. The very fact that what you felt was needed(or the other person felt) was missing lead to a breakup and there is little reason that you would want to get into a relationship with the same kind of person.
Well there might be some characteristics and traits which would be common( for eg. In my case positive thinking, mature ,independent-thinking, self-dependent) but there would be that something new which will attract you to the next one.
But why do breakups happen? Are they tough to digest? Or are they mutual and there are no hard feelings at end?
I guess that’s a question an individual has to answer taking his feelings into account. I personally feel that no breakup can be a good one where both the parties involved agree to part in good terms. Coz I feel that if there is true love involved you will try your level best in order to save the relationship. If the unfortunate event does happen then the person who truly loves the other is bound to feel aggrieved. If there is no true love involved then that’s a different case altogether. But this is my viewpoint. And I don’t expect you to agree with me in this case.
How do breakups affect life? I can speak for me and the male gender as such, but I guess I wouldn’t be in a good enough position to comment on the female gender. Men may feel aggrieved initially(on the assumption that there was true love involved) and feel for the gem they might have lost. But then, men…being men wont show their emotion’s outside to the world with the fear of being taken as a weakling. Hence they wont even end up discussing it with someone close in order to lighten their image. The uber cool dude image is something they wouldn’t want to mess with. But trust me, for a guy who has been in a relationship for a long time , its not really that easy to get over the girl he truly loved. That’s when some of them take a decision not let another girl enter their life but rather have fun around or be cautious with the way they behave .These two scenarios don’t happen side by side and I guess it would be one of the two. This is when they may meet someone else who would enter their lie.
What about girls!?........................................................
I have never ever understood girls in my life and hence I guess there is no way I am gonna be able to understand what they would do in case of a break up ?
Girls though invest a lot into the relationship than their male counterparts. They work a bit on their emotional side whereas men are more practical. It would be ok for a guy not to hear sweet nothings on the phone but that may not be the case with a girl. She may not show the fact but then a little attention to them by their guys would do a lot for the relationships. Men don’t keep track of small small things and that may not affect them, but for girls it means a lot. They consider it as a way in which a guy would be showing affection and paying attention to them.
This is where the entire issue lies. A girl always needs someone to be with them. In sense a shoulder to lean upon which is a good thing. According to them however intellectually mature or independent the girl may be, their guy is nothing less than a greek god and they expect him to take care of them. But then a guy seldom realizes that and they kind of cannot take this dis-attachment beyond a time by which they would have gone on an emotional roller coaster on their own.
But there are also cases when the girls overdo their part a bit and start getting pissed off at the flimsiest of reasons (*tumne mujhe aaj I love you kyon nahi bola*). Well in such a relationship , love becomes too suffocating for love itself to exist. This is where a guy may lose it and decide to call things off.
Life’s special and I certainly don’t believe in the fact that true love happens once. The intensity does vary over the years .Your first true love will always be your first true love and something else may or may not be able to surpass your feelings about it. You may feel comfortable or uncomfortable in front of your ex depending upon how you take it. That eventually happens to be a personal decision.
We all here may have found our perfect other half or may still be waiting to catch the right bus. But the journey as such is a beautiful one with its ups and downs. Each relationship shows what’s good in you and each break up shows what may have been wrong with you (even though you would be the one who called it off).You learn about people ,their peers and in the process end up learning a lot about yourself.
Each break up which you have ( I hope you don’t have any and not it’s not that I am canvassing for the break up experience here) lets you think what was right and what was wrong and you become a better person as such because you know now how you have to go forward from now on.
Some of you may think that what I have written doesn’t make sense and real life is much simpler. But give my words a though, analyse ad contemplate an you would the entire picture forming in front of you. A picture depicting no else but you .
So my first blog post in two years ends here.
|Hope the gap between posts doesn’t increase but comes down.

MY NAME IS KHAN-REVIEW

2010-02-13T21:48:00.000-08:00

THERAPEUTIC MISADVENTURE

Review By Nara:

Shahrukh khan shines in a dull yet earnest and sincere message movie that tries too hard to be subtle but turns out to be unabashedly emotional at all the wrong moments..

My name is khan is a movie oozing with sincerity and made with a lot of good intention..but good intentions don't always translate into good cinema..

My name is khan, directed by karan johar (known for his larger than life filmmaking k3g and kkhh) is the story of Rizwan Khan an autistic(specifically Aspergers syndrome) who finds it hard to adjust socially..he doesn't like being touched or hugged..he is scared of meeting new people going to crowded places..loud noises and even the colour Yellow..but in no way is he crazy infact he is self confessedly very smart..he is a handy man,salesman and indefatigably chaser after factoids..
The movie begins with the FBI questioning Rizwan at an airport with Rizwan famous replying "My name is khan and i am not a terrorist"..A line is used repeatedly and austistically? with various implications and infact forming the crux of the film..soon Johar shifts to flashback mode and we are taken to riot hit mumbai 1983 where rizwan's mother (played exceptionally by Zarina wahab) explains to khan that the world is filled with just two kinds of ppl good ppl and bad ppl..this forms the simplistic ideology behind Khan's simple thinking..and this constitutes one of the finest moments of the film..we are also introduced to zaqir khan's younger brother who is lucky unlike rizwan because he can express those emotions..Johar is completely at home while dealing with emotions and realtionships..the scene then shifts to San Francisco..where Khan relocates after the death of his mother and this is where the problem with the movie begins..Enter Mandira(kajol in full form) who owns a beauty parlour in downtown sanfrancisco and the romance between Khan and mandira blossoms..it is not the trademark Johar style romance that we have come to associate with Johar .over the years, ala extravagant locales and designer clothes..A lot of it appears forced and fabricated but the leads with their sparkling chemistry more than compensate for it..There are many endearing moments thanks to the inspiring performance by SRK..watch him in the scene where he blushes in response to kajols proposal or the scene where the two decide what they should get down doing post marriage..the duo are in peak form..but they are overshadowed by karan johar's new found love for subtlety..maybe he wants to grow up again(after failing miserably in KANK)..how we wish he could stay with the kuch kuch hota hai kind of candy floss..sometimes some people shldnt grow up..
The tone shifts from romance to drama post 9/11 attacks and their relationship with the rest of the society becomes strained..i mite add also with the rest of the audience..What could have been a subtle change turns into an over the top at your face moment when Khan visits the funeral of his neighbour sporting a taqiya and reciting the verses from the quran..A scene handled more deftly is one where Khan's brother explains to his wife (when she is not allowed to wear the hijaab)that "allah samajh jaayenge yeh log nahi samjenge"..How i wish the film had more of such fine pieces of writing..The scene showing the death of a young boy is also moving but the impact dosen't last..

And by the time we reach the second half the writing goes into irreparable self destruct mode. Following a personal tragedy we have khan traversing the entire distance of the united states to meet the President and to tell him(what else) that name is khan and he is not a terrorist..Khan then shifts into superman-meets forrest gump mode and goes about shouting down fundamentalist leaders handing them over to the fbi..getting arrested by the fbi himself and (gasp hold your breath!)singing We Shall Over Come at a church..the writing is incredibly contrived; and the screenplay writer Shibani Bhatija packs in so much that khans belaboured journey becomes an ordeal particularly for the viewers..the puerility climbs a peak where in the pre-climax scene khan single handedly oversees a rescue operation in a flood.. IF you aren't convinced by now or didn't know it already,the scene shows how the good peaople are really good.

In all this mayhem, shah rukh khan holds his own and turns out an extra-ordinary performance..he is sincere ,earnest and so restrained that you see an all new dimension to india's biggest star that I thought couldn't exist..He has paid great attention to detail transforming himself to Rizwan ,to make the character likeable so musch so you end up rooting for him something you usualyy don't do for SRK's acting...Shahrukh is the best thing about my name is khan..watch him in that scene where he talks about personal loss not getting overtly emotional yet conveying the agony and the pain..But scenes such as these are too few and far between because the makers try so hard to move you that after a point it feels like someone is poking you goading you to get those lacrimal glands loose..Kajol is brilliant in a somewhat limited role..largely because the whole of the second half is about khan..Her portrayal of her character going through the entire spectrum of emotions from being hyper to sensitively portraying a sense of loss to becoming the gently supportive mrs khan..she goes about her work with professional ease and the vibrant energy that we associate with her..A special mention about tanmay chadda who plays the younger khan...Shankar ehsaan loy's score is good with noor-e -khudha standing out.. Ravi.k.chandhran's slick cinematography is something u will take home with you along with S.R.K'S performance ofcourse

The major problem with mnik lies with Johar's handling of the subject..yes it does make a few urgent and relevant points about religious tolerance equality and peace but it goes about doing so in a very simplistic, convenient and loud manner that it makes the whole subject look frivolous..The movie sounds so much like a moral science lesson that the entertainment quotient goes right out of the window..and who says you cant make message films that entertain..ask another star with the same sir name..he'll tell u..Despite the wonderful personal effort by SRK you don't feel Khan's pain along with him because Johar ensures you are not meant to.He has more relevant issues like religious tolerance and world peace that he wants to throw at your face in order to enlighten you..The suffering of rizwan,well that can take a back seat because the film maker wants to show that he has matured and has thought up a process to save the world..Maybe he should just go back to the drawing board and let emotions like pathos,sense of loss and love do the talking,rather than attach them to preachy moral tags and lofty ideologies of communal amity and tolerance.Maybe Karan Johar just KHAN'T

My take on it:

well the review above is apt. The movie is a bold attempt.. The main character being an autist was a masterstroke(well otherwise the movie would have fallen flat). Its a great movie to watch...but then just a one times...it shows those glimpses of brilliance...but also ends up flat at times...a definte theatre one though
my rating :3.5-4/5

p.s.....that rating may look less to some....or high to some...but believe me...srk and kajol's acting alone is enough to justify that

hello ppl!! I feel...26/11 AND EVERYTHING AROUND

2009-11-21T08:10:00.000-08:00

With so many things around, it is quite tough to focus or think on what u want to think in the first place. The semesters have been quite a drain till now. and i still have to more exams to go. Just one thing is coming to my mind now.....26/11...its first anniversary is approaching and are we any better off than what we were a year back The day when 10 bastards trained by 80 bastards made 100's orphan and widowed .The so called spirit of mumbaikars is back as an issue now but let me tell even mumbaikars accept that there is no such spirit anymore.Even they are tired of the nonsense they are having face.Just look at our country. We have an idiot has our NATIONAL SECURITY ADVISOR. The person is who is solely responsible for the destruction of our premier intelligence agency R.A.W. which about 10 years back was at par with the C.I.A(the process of rot was started by the then prime minister I.K.GUJRAL). When one reads the bureaucracy involved in the postings, you just get an anger which might even the water cup nearby. And coming to the police modernization, DOES A anyone know why MR.HEMANT KARKARE die?! It was because of those faulty bullet proof jackets(May his soul r.i.p).Come on guys, the rifles which our police has are nothing compared even to what pakistan has. We are fighting with rifles which belong to the WORLD WAR II era. GOD, the amount of corruption and the red tape involved is seriously rotting our society?! Ours arms deals are nowhere near to getting signed, Ours indigenous arms technology is lagging. Everything takes so much time in this "once upon a great country" called INDIA. Why do i cry or my eyes get moists whenevr an attack takes place. Even know when i think about 26/11 tears drop down my eyes..Does my country deserve this!? And what are our politicians upto!? making money and blaming each other.!? Another BASTARD knows as MADHU KODA swindles around rs5000 crores and when the enforcement directorate wants to interrogate him, he feigns some shit and gets admitted to the APOLLO hospital(now APOLLO guys.. i didnt expect this crap from u). and what is he doing a week later!? Campaigning for the jharkhand assembly elections..When mayawati is busy building statues, the goons in U.P. are having fun.Will this country ever move forward!? And now coming back to 29/11, the INDIAN media proved that it still is ints nascent stage. They are as much to bals as kasab or zakhve. It was thier uninterrupted coverage of the commando action which served as a feed to those bastard handlers in terroristan...oops PAKISTAN. The over zealous media establishment...HANG YOUR HEADS down in shame.the way u asked questions to the realtives of people who were trapped inside?!"how are you feeling" WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?! WHAT T HE FUCKING HELL WOULD THEY BE FEELING.. DONT U KNOW..BASRTARDS......YA MEDIA..THAT ONE IS FOR YOU.....even my most favorite news channel NDTV fell down from its pedestal. BTW what tjhe hell was the indian government wqas doing then.BLOODY IDIOTS..couldn u have had a blackout of those channels!?if Pakistan can block geo for a month...all u had to do is block all the 100 odd news channels in india till the operation got over...SHAME ON YOU....WHY THE HELL DO U PPL AWLWAYS SAY THE WORD...NEXT TIME?!

god KEEP INDIA SAFE.....

U REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY OR FEEL...

2009-10-12T12:47:00.000-07:00

i dont know whether this happens in everybody's life....u have those days...where u just go on contemplating...contemplating about this that....and the suddenly u realize that the whole thing would be perfect if just those conditions we put on ourselves are are removed in the first place....the serenity of live...the calmness....the truthfulness...it just may make u feel out of this world...if we could just stop believing in the non beliefs we have...if we could just say to ourselves...we know what are faults....we know we have to improve upon...all faults are not our vices....but or vices are certainly our faults...but then it would be better if faults and vices are both removed from our life...the minute...the second you realize that...u feel the calmness around...u feel how better the world...your own world would be....people who start hating u may start liking you...u may start liking u in the first place....its just that we dont have the ability or courage in ourselves to accept that we might be wrong...what we are doing is wrong...even to the point that it may be blatant....we just take the easy way out ..."get lost"...but only if we start working towards removing from ourselves the reasons which cause of our problems....life may certainly turn for the good...take my case...i am the laziest being around...a half an hour back i realized that its my laziness and indifferent attitude has turned me to the direction of what many may call self destruction...the paths can always be changed...all you need is the commitment to work away from it....as i said i dont even know why am typing this...that too at 1.10 in the morning...when the world around me is sound asleep....as ppl in c.h.y.k. always say...ur main aim in life is happines...and we can be happy only if we work towards our goal....or as i may say work away from ur faults....u may nl\ot achieve ur goal in the end...but u shall at least be satisfied that u at least tried...if i...i u....if we...could just take a moment of...think abouth the most beautiful thing in the world....for me its the mountains of ladakh...and if thats perfection...what would we need...to achieve that...that beauty...that divinity...why is that not there is us...that calmness...that peace and that solace...is it possible to have...is it possible!!? thi9nk....u may get the snswer...i didnt get the snwer when i tried this...but atleast i felt happy...that i can be THAT ....that which would make a better soul at the end of it all...

OH Chacha Pandit Nehru...(JASWANT SINGH- U WERE PARTLY RIGHT)

2009-09-23T09:52:00.000-07:00

Panditji...ye tussi ki kar diye...maare pyaare se desh ki waat laga di...

i always felt he was the wrong guy to lead india especially diring its"TRYST WITH DESTINY"...my research always pointed out to this....ala jaswant singh...

infact i agree with jaswant sigh...if not patel...this pandit was certainly had an important role to play in INDIA 's partition...

Gandhiji....i wish u were god...but u were human too...but u made mistakes...and my god...those mistakes..they seriously cost us a lot(should write a post on that)..

if this doesn make sense to you..

please Read the stuff in tHe following link...

THE BLUNDER OF THE PANDIT

i just wish panditjji had courage in him....nt just the want of power...

My trip to SHREE MITHAI-SHANTI COLONY ANNANAGAR

2009-09-20T09:50:00.000-07:00

It was the day of the manchester derby...MANCHESTER 'RULZ' UNITED vs MANCHESTER 'NOT SO BAD' CITY. the first half was boring....and i had this inclination of going out for the whole...there was some work in store for the evening but that never materialized for reasons best known to god...or umesh and subbu( hey guys i had messaged u asking me to tell where i have to go)

it was half time ...the scores level at 1-1...i thought i would go to Amethyst with sarfaraz...but even that didnt materialize...then a sudden thoughtcame to my mind that i had not gonw out wid my family for almost a month now...so i went to mom and said that lets go out...thirty minutes later it was decided that we would be going to the newly opened SHREE MITHAI at shantiu colony...this was a tad different from the spencers branch but similar to the one one at chetpet...in sense it had a fine dine along with the food court...

so once the match ended...(which indeed ended in a glorious style with michael owen scoring the winner for man utd at 90+6 mins...ya 90+6 ...can u believe that!!? so deep into the extra time....) we decided to leave for that place...i was wearing my new man utd jersey which i had got a couple of days back(thanks sis and jeeju) since the evening....i decided to continue wearing that for the dinner..

it was around 8 and we were there...this place reminded me of one of favorite oreastaurants in ahmedabad where i had spent gr8 3 yrs of my life...RASRANJAN.....god...u should have looked at the crowd there...we thought that since the food court is crowded the fine dine might not be...but man o man...it was such a crowd there....the guy over there told us that we would have to wait for half an hour in order to get sweated....i was pissed at first...but then this turned out to be a blessing in disguise for the rest of my night....i decided to observe the mannerisms of people and play the eyeball game with the goodlooking ones around(1 which i am a pro at)...

there was this lady...she looked a normal south indian...and her hubby was wearing a yellow nimbooz t shirt(do u work for that!?)...he was talking normally on the phone wid someone over the pgone...but this female....even though not a kiity party type was certainly trying to act as one...(the show offs na...i tell u...urrgghh)...ashe started to speak to her daughter in english...oh yea...did i tell u that the daughter would be hardly 3..or at max 4yrs old!?...i hate ppl like taht...people who wont use thier own mother tongue...but speak in that 'engglipese'....this certainly doesn help....trhis is just show of...take my case forr example...my mom never did this to me...and i can say that the right exposure which my parents gave me at the right time helped me and not any show off like this...they always had...and do...and shall speak to me in only tamil or hindi...be it at home...or outside....englipese id defintly not required....and one can be as proficient as me(if u consider that....) or anyone else....

then there was thiis gujju family...(gujjus....they are very sweet ppl...just like their oondhiyo..)...there was this gurl who i guessed would be studying in her 12th or something...she was the first one with whom i started my eyeballing game with..

for those humble illiterates who dont know what 'eyeballing' game means....
1. if i find a gurl attractive...i look at her for a couple of secs...and then look somewhere else...but make sure she know that i am looking at her...
2. if the gurl is interested then she looks back...smiles...and does the same thing as me....()the smile can come a lil later too)
3. this happens for a couple of times....and then i take my phone out....or my ipod...or something like that...and fiddle with it..
4. the gurl will do the same thing if she is playing the game....and i case she doesn its time rto move on buddy..
5.and then look at her again and then i smile at her for the first time..
6. then we keep looking at each other....bbut still trying to look only when the other persons nort watching....
7.. then i get bored...i start looking at some other gurl...lol

this is the great eyeballing game...
i would give that gurl a 6.5 on a scale of ten.....better than average.....she took her sony psp out in competition to my ipod....i swear she had recently gbought it...coz she was having a tuf time operating it...i couldn help but smile in a sarcastic way...poor gurl...she kept it back in her purse....

then there was this group of friends.....4 guys and 3 gurls...there was this gurl in middle...god...she was hot....i hadn seen one like her for abt a mnth now...(btw..a situational joke....what are good looking pretty or hot gurls in chennai called...TOURISTS...lol)

she didnt eyeball...she directly smiled....wow...that was it...and we were constantly looking at each other..i dunt kno whether it was me or my man utd jersey...but something did have a lucky charm on it today...2 hot gurls in a span of 15 minutes.....she was wearing a nice LIL black top...and when i was looking at her,.....disaster stuck..the guy next to her caught me red handed in my game...i mean our game...naturally he thought i was the culprit...and he was sending cold stares down at me.....must have been that gurl's bf...boyfriend or best friend...(both the idiots are equally possesive...)i thought it was best to leave her...

by this time....i was already hungry and mice were playing kabaddi in my stomach(pet mein choohe daud rahe the)....

the manager or whevfer he was camme and told that we could go and occupy a particular place...and god..that was the best place one could get to see all the people...

once the order was placed...i knew had some more time to look at ppl and families nearby....

two couples with their bunch of kids walked in....marwadi i bet...thosekids were the naughtiest ones i had seen for quite some time....playing running and catching i n a packed hall...almost rought a waiter down...thier parents had a tuf time handling them...they reminded me of my own childhood days....how mischevieous i was according to ppl...lol...

then walked in a family...FAMILY...coz it was an extended one with around 12 ppl...there was just one gurl ....who incidentally was in my age group;....there begun the eyeballing game again...and she was the one started this time around....she was wearing a cut whit kurti...and her smile was really cute....she wasn one of those hot types...but certainly the cute types...the one you would want to be mom's daughter in law...lol.....

and then...finally the food arrived....and it really did tase good...paisa vasool...worth the money spent on it...

all this while i also noticed that everyone who comes here tries to dress impeccably...some look good...some look bad...some look great...some look show off...some look a disaster.....

and just then when i was abt to fiinish my food....a stunner walks in wid her family...i would give her a 9 on ten....(thats rare....believe me...ashlee simpson , katrina kaif and deepika padukone get 9.5 on my rating scale...)but there was something unique abt her.....i dont know what...may be she had a mystique about her...her hair....was like those flowy tresses type....a normal green top...with that half black jacket or overcoat....she was cute...she was hot...i didnt feel like eye balling here...i just saw here....and saw her again...she saw me during my second look...and kinda made a wierd esxpression ...which was a combination of surprise and a 'hi'....

i was cursing my luck...i was abt to leave that place in 5 mins....i looked at her gain....but this time around...she was busy chit chatting with her family..

i was leaving nw...i crossed...i didnt smile....but our eyes met...and then i crossed here....i swear she smiled then...i think she did....and then a few steps later...i turned back...just in time to catch her having a last glance of me...i smiled back( a sarcastic one tho...oh god bad luck type...).....and that was it...

not only a great dinner...but also a few good looking gurls...after a long time....

The Great Indian Middle Class Parent!!!

2009-09-11T05:13:00.001-07:00

MOM AND DAD!!! I LOVE YOU....THIS POST IS AIMED AT THOSE PARENTS WHO ARE NOT LIKE YOU...

there are a few things i have analyzed over the past few days...

the indian middle class parents have this funn thing about them...

1.mera beta engineer...mera beta doctor...meri beti ias

else

2. my son indian idol, my daughter airtel super singer...

this is just the icing....

kids have to go to a tuition early in the morning...then go to the school...and then again tuition....and then music class(or sme other crap)..

ALL THIS FOR A 8 yR OLD....

ne mark less than the first mark(of the top 3) marks is a sin...a blot on the family....

no play....u cant go to the ground and play during the evenings..."no play may make u duller than jack...but more 10 minutes studies will be good brains...WHAT THE FUCK!!??"

u know what...the basic problem is that THESE PARENTS want to live their own childhood dreams through their kids...if i couldn become an engineer...then m son will...and should...else i will break his knuckles...

COMMERCE group which happens to be a wonderful group...is looked down and frowned upon...as if it is a course for the lesser mortals....hey jackasses....thats nt the case...

a kid even if he or she is not interested in going for those music classes....should go for it...the kid might be interested in western music..but carnatic music is what he ends up learning....or vice versa....

wh arent the kids being given time to play...

time to think for themselves....
time to analze...

why should ever god damn thing be forced upon them..

i seriously pity some of those kids in airtel super singer....some of them have just been forced into singing a particular song coz the parents wanted them to even though it was beond thier level(as mahathi, one of the judges pointed out)

these kids have no dreams...dream...but don even think about...

read...but not NOVELS....but ur textbook..

it was a couple of weeks back....when a neighbourhood aunty asked me whether she should send her daughter for iit training....i asked her which standard was the kid studying in..

8TH STD...HOLY SHIT...can u believe that....come on ppl...thats the age arnd which ppl start attaining knowledge abt life...its the start of adolescence....and u wanna ruin it by those iit classes!??

this problem is more down SOUTH here in INDIA....am not taking sides here....but i have in north for a long time...and travelled over half of india....so i guess i can safely say what is what and where is it like that....but it is the same in north.though less...

allows the kids to learn

DONT KILL THE CREATIVITY...

let them go out and play...

LET THEM NOT CHOOSE THE SAME OLD LINE OF DOCS...ENGG...

IF THE WANT TO BE DIFFERENT...ALLOW THEM TO BE...

DONT FORCE UR PRINCIPLES ...UR IDEAS UPON THEM....

IF THEY GO WRONG...THE WILL FALL...AND THEY WILL LEARN...

This is a story...give it a title...

2009-08-20T05:20:00.000-07:00

whenever things is life are not going as planned...one always has two ways to go forward...either keep trynig or say WTF and quit!!
this is what 24 abhukh shrivastava was faced with....he was a calm guy who never thought doing what he wanted to do would land him in what he never wanted to do....LOVE!!!...

thats what he did...he loved a woman so badly that she had become his sole aim of life..right from the first day he saw her he knew she would be the one who would make him cpomplete...be his better half...but as luck would have it...things were definetly not destined to beasy...

he was a guy of t...a guy wid his mba degree from one of the Iims earning abt arnd 80 grand a month..he had practicall anything that he had wanted...and she was something that he wasnted to achieve...te only thing he had not yet conquered....

she was Riya..Riya saxena...a girl who had just joined his office as his deputy...and from the first had been close to him....sitting in the same cabin didnt make thins easy for abhyuk...he was elder to her b abt 4 yrs...but he tried hard to make her feel comfortable...make her interact with him at an inter peronal level...
but then she had taken him as her mentor.. a man whom she looked upto...a guy who wil guide her and be her beacon as she would pass through the murky corporate world...

das had passed...days became weeks...it was high time abhyuk thought something must be done....he stalled...wondering whether he sould do what he was bout to...he had never done this before...he had alwas been an introvert..and he didnt want to hurt riya at any cost....he asked her out for dinner...riya's jaw dropped....and her it opened ...trying to say a few words...only to close again...she didnt know how to react...abhyuk realized he might have messed up...just as he was about to to apologize and set matters to ease...she said OK.....she was read for the dinner....abhyuk was stunned....he couldn believe what he just heard....it was decided for 8 in the night....

he was dressed like a gentleman...a man an gurl would would fall for...she was looking like a princess in her black gown that was tantalizingly sensuous for any man's eyes....

the dinner wasnt the main issue here at the hotel..which happpened to be among the finest ones in the town...their eyes finall met...it seemed straight right for him to tell her right there that she was the one for him...how much he loved her.....even her eyes were looking at him...she was obviously nervous....she smiled at thin and started looking at him with a reazization that he mat more than just a boss or a mentor....a man who would keep her happy for the rest of his life...it was comforting for both of them...

on the dance floor...it was teh jazz night...arms in arms...looking at each other...they danced...never knowing what was happening around them now...it was as if time had stood still...and only one thing mattered..them...love was in the air...maybe she had reazilzed it to...boith brought thier face forward...it was as if the kiss had been a prewritten destiny then...but it didnt...she laid her down on his chest....something that meant more then to him than a kiss...and they were still dancin....holding each other tightly n one othe's arms...

at the end when it was time to drop her off...he decided to stop the car about a kilometre from her house....and decided to walk her home...stealing a few extra moments with her in this bargain...

walking had never been such a pleasure for both of them...but it still semed differnt..silence defined the mood....but suddenly..."I MIGHT BE GETTING ENGAGED THIS WEEK..."....riya didnt have to say that...but then abhyuk had to know...

he just stopped....he couldn take it....what did she just!!? "what....are u serious!?"...ya i am...my parents are coming tommorow...and i would be going back to delhi tommorow for a week's time..we are going to ma dad's old friends place...its his son ....i had apllied for a weeks leave...remember!?...

she had...and it was for this reason abhyuk had asked her out today....his inner voice had told him if not today...thn never....but guess it had slso for got to tell him that there was also a shock in store for him....
"oh good...congrats...whose the lucky guy..."...his voice disguised his distress..."i dont kno actually...but except fot the fact that he shares our name"...

the world had fallen apart..,how more unlucky could he be....his name...bu not him...was that a solace he was supposed to live wifth the rest of his life....

his phone rung then...'michalel jackson's all i wanna say is that they dont relly cared about us' was blared loudyl...."hey abhyuk....its dad here...i want you to be here in delhi in a couple of days time/...no ifs or buts..."..."but dad...i got a lot of work here('delhi..no not now...especially when she mite be getting engaged there with my namesake')...".."you will be here...thats all"...and he hung up...his dad had never been so rude to him...but then they never had been on good terms for sme time now...

her house had come...he wanted to kiss her...just say it out...nut then wthat would just make him a loser....just then unexpectedly.....she landed a peck on his cheek...it was his lips...but then it deflected towards his cheek...he was sure aboout...he smiled...thats the least he could do now...

he had had his souvenier ....or maybe the final nail in the coffin of his love life....

THREE DAYS LATER:

abhyuk had finally reached delhi...and was sipping coffee...thinking about here...where she would be...what se would be doing...she was in the same city...he wanted to speak to her...his hand reached for the phone....but he just couldn....

that evening...his dad's lan had been revealed to him...
his dad's friend's family was visiting him...and he expected his son to interact with his friend's daughter....

he texted her'maybe even i am getting engaged'....and then he finally gathered up the courage. to call her upjas he was abt to call her...he recieved a beep beep..a text' i am not asking you who the klucky gurl is...but just wish i was that lucky gurl'....

he couldn believe it....
he called her....maybe there was still a chance....maybe they could convince both their parents....he waitd for her to pick up...but then he was hearing a ringtone somewhere nearby...he could have sweared rthat he had heard it somehere else...it was the same as ria's...it was coming from his hall..and riya still wasnt picking up..

there in the hall..stould RAJ SAXENA's family....he,his wife JYOTHI..........................................................................and his daughter RIYA...

he could he beleve what he saw...riya was there...she was stunned....shocked..,..surprised...but happy....there parents wanted them to marry each other!!?...how small the world can be...

how comehe never knew his dads friend raj saxena....was riya's dad...!?

but then it was not the time for these questions now....

they both were left togerther in a rooom to interact with each other...get to know each other well(thats an old indian tradition)...

and then the were alone...

just one thing happened.....they kissed...as passionatre as they could be....it was the eruption of enotions.....as if there was noo tommorow...

it went on and on and on...the were finally one now...

and there parents were happily discussing engagement and marriage plans now over cup of tea...while there children were still engrossed in telling each other how much they loved each other...

Clint Eastwood-The Man..a 1 man industry

2009-07-24T12:55:00.000-07:00

hey ppl...i am a very very very very very big fan of clint eastwood ever since i saw his movie THE GOOD,THE BAD AND THE UGLY for the first time around eight years back(i hope my memory serves me right) I still remember that day when dad asked me to watch this movie since this happens to be one of his favorite movies'. and since i was new to chennai and no better thing to do...i sat down and watchd it...and my oh m...what a movie it was....especially the soundtrack...or the last scene invloving the classical mexican standoff....

I have seen quite a few of his movies since then and i thought i could write a post on the ones i loved a lot per se...

the latest one i saw is GRAN TORINO...the movie was release in late dec2008 in the u.s.a. and in jan 2009 in the rest of the world...(unfortunately...i dont think it released here in india)...i will come to this one later...

the best part about this guy is that...that not only does he acts in his movies...but also...directs ...co-produces and also scores the music for most of his movies...which according to me is a great feat(kamal haasan...he is the only one i can remember back home who is the closest in terms of equalling his feat)

THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY(1966)....

This movie starring Clint Eastwood as the good guy...LEE VAN CLEEFE as the bad guy...and ELI WALLACH as the Ugly( basically means he is a mix of both good and bad...and predominantly funny)

the story is that these guys are after a gold treasure buried somewhere in the caves by the two warring armies in the american civil war...

for more info...

check this out..
WIKIPEDIA LINK-THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY

MILLION DOLLAR BABY:

this movie stars clint eastwood, morgan freeman and hillary swank. this movie won four oscars. i guess most of u would have heard about this movie. iut came out in 2004 and i watched this in 2005. this is the story of how an amateur like hillary swank wants to work hard and prove herself as a successful boxer....and how an old trainer ...successful but down and out clint eastwood helps her in achieving this goal...amazing acting b the cast...love this movie....check it out..

WIKIPEDIA LIKE-MILLION DOLLA BABY(2004)
UNFORGIVEN(1992):

This movie got him three oscars...best picture...best actor ...and best director(told u...he is a genius)

Unforgiven is a 1992 Western film produced and directed by Clint Eastwood with a screenplay written by David Webb Peoples. The film tells the story of William Munny, an aging and retired gunslinger who takes on one more job years after he had hung up his guns and turned to farming. A dark Western that deals frankly with the uglier aspects of violence and the myth of the Old West, it stars Eastwood in the lead role, along with Gene Hackman, Morgan Freeman, Richard Harris, Jaimz Woolvett, Saul Rubinek and Frances Fisher.

Gene Hackman btw happens to be among one of m favorites...also love hos performances in other movies such as behind enemy lines....under suspicion...crimson tide...etc

WIKIPEDIA LINK-UNFORGIVEN

CHANGELING:

This is a movie which was directed by him but he didnt act in it...angelina jolie gt the nomination for best actress in the oscars for this movie...a realyl great movie...which touches ur heart...its abt christine collins and her searching for her son who had been kidnapped b a paedophile...

and the corrupt los angeles police department...and how the give her back a kid which is not hers...i felt a tear drop down my eyes at the end of the movie...

i have seen this movie as well as the reader which stars kate winslet for whch she won the oscar...i think angelina deserved the oscar...and according to me the reader was kinda a depressing sort of a story(well executed tho) with nothing but total frontal and back nudity in the first forty five minutes...

WIKIPEDIA LINK-CHANGELING

LETTERS FORM IWO JIMA....FLAGS OF OUR FATHERS:

these are two different movies...but u can call them sister movies.. .both are based upon the same topic...the battle of iwojima...IWO JIMA is an island which was captured by the americans during the wwII...

Letters from iwojima showed the JAPANESE aspect of t stor...KEN WANTABE plays brilliantly as the japanese general...this movie is in japanese...ya i said it rite...a hollywood movie in japanase with english subtitles....i

Flags of our fathers showed basically the american aspect of the story....it showd the lifes of the 6-7 men who had become the so called "HEROES" after li fting that flag...pardon me for using the word 'so called' because only when u see this movie will u realize what i mean to say...

LETTERS FRIM IWO JIMA HAPPENS TO BE THE BETTER OF THE TWO MOVIES ACCORDING TO ME......these movies were released a couple of months apart in 2006...

WIKIPEDIA LINK-LETTERS FROM IWO JIMA

WIKIPEDIA LINK-FLAGS OF OUR FATHERS

GRAN TORINO:

this is the movie is w now...its the story of walt who is a ,man who is hated by everyone and especially hates his chinky neighbours...how he manages his life after his wife dies...his fights with his married children...and he gets on to the friendly terms wit his chinky neiggbors...and how he gets rid of the local gangs...

honestly...take this word me from for this...a master piece...the oscar guys were crazy not give it a single nomination...maybe they wanted just 1 clint wastwood movie to be nominated...(changeling)...the ocar morons dint even nominate the dark knight and wall-e in the best movie caegor...and the award went to a bullshit film like slumdog millionaire....

WIKIPEDIA LINK-GRAN TORINO

i have seen several more of his movies...but these were the best ones according to me...

there is this one more film which i want u ppl to see...

i haven seen this yet...will do tomoro nite....MYSTIC RIVER...sean penn won the best actor for this....directed by clint...

hope u enjoyed this post...and hope the links help u...

and hey 1 of my friends was telling mt that there is sme problem which is nt allowing him and others to comment...some javascript problem in the submit page...in case it persists...do temme in my orkut or fb page...

My perfect love

2009-07-22T07:18:00.000-07:00

this is a short post....

What do i think about my perfect love!!?!?

ok this would have rounded up our eyeballs till now....

before u read this...perfect love=the gurl i would love to marry....
not my girlfriends..(anyways i dont have 1 nw...pretty happy wid dat...the past sux man)

she should be the epitome of beaut...i kno some ppl ...some of m friends who sa that beauty doesn matter as long as the gurls heart is good...

but i always tell them..my gurl needs to be the epitome of beauty..a the vua the best...deepika padukone type...she needs to have great face...thats the first thing i always attracts(or detracts) me in an gurl...the face...

if she's got a great face...gorgeous type...the one with great eyes...luscious lips...and that cahrming smile to go along with it...chances are that she might have a great heart too..

and one thing i want to say is that she should be BEAUTY WITH BRAINS...i kno thats rare...beauty with brains!!?i bet u must be thinking that i am joking....but he i kno am not...i kno its rare to find such a gurl....but...then
arent diamonds rare!?(am not talking abt the jewellery shop)

she would have that sweet voice...the one which i would love to drown in...her eyes...should mesmerize and tantalize me like wine...lol(eg..deepika padukone)

she should be able of carrying herself with grace...confident abt the stuff she does..

in short she would be the one would love me the most...kick me up my a$$ the most when i do wrong stuff...her shoulder would be the one i wud like to lean upon in times of despair...she would be my best friend....she would be the most beautiful gurl in rhe world...the sweetest...the cutest..the one who would be mine...

hey i just realized that this write sounds like a frikking matrimonial add...

next post 2mrw...haven written for a gap i guess...

VARUN GANDHI AnD hIS Z+ SeCuRitY-DOES HE DESERVE IT!?

2009-07-07T05:16:00.000-07:00

hey ppl!!...am back after a week of hiatus....

this time its about a news headline which i saw in tv now which made me write down my thoughts here...

Its about the Z+ category being provided to VARUN GANDHI as he is under serious threat from the chota shakeel (what a name for a DON...chota shakeel..chota what...name or that ding dong...well btw he is one of the bastards responsible for 1992 blasts in mumbai)

For people who dont know about varun gandhi and who he his.....

here's the wikipedia link....he is the great grand son of jawaharlal nehru(a person i hate ),cousin of rahul gandhhi, son of sanjay gandhi and maneka gandhi(a former model who married indira's son sanjay and now is a fanatical animal rights activist....lol...fanatic coz she once was against laloo(then railway minister) idea of earthen pots in trains saying it would lead to mass death of microbes and earthworms)

WIKIPEDIA-VARUN GANDHI

now that u know what and who he his...letme tell you how came into the limelight...as a gandhi scion he had to be in the media limelight by default....

He contested the recently held general elections in INDIA from PILIBHIT, a constituency in UTAR PRADESH...

HIS RISE TO (MIS)FAME::::

Well, actually before starting lemme tell you all that one side of me doesn respect that guy...so i am going to address him as an idiot...
this idiot was giving a speech in his constituency on relegious (in)tolerance...
and this is what he said...

"I will cut any hand that attacks hindus"
"i will cut the head of muslims who attack hindus"

YOUTUBE LINK....

He said all that...he tried to create communal misharmony...well okay maybe the hindus of that area were suffering under the muslims...but this is no way to stir emotions up on the eve of the world.s biggest exertion of franchise-the indian elections...
this definetly would have got thos idiots in that don gang rackled up...and choto shakeel promptly sent his 6 sharp shooters to kick this guy's arse(who were cught by the delhi police a couple of days back)...

His mom MANEKA GANDHI tried to stir maternal emotions up ...by saying.....BCHARA LADKA...BECHARA BACCHA..aur kitna pareshaan karoge usey(POOR GUY...POOOR BABY....HOW MUCH MORE WOULD THE GOVERNMENT TROUBLE HIM)
these were the sentences said by the mother of 29 YR OLD BABY OR INFANT(ok..ya he does look plum like a kid for a 29 yr old) when he was put in jail by the state government under the national security act...(which was touted by many as a misuse of power)

I am a hindu...and my best friend is a muslim....and such statements by people really bother me and many indians out there....

but but but...here comes the other side...

things were seriously going wrong in pilibhit...according to many...hindus were rellly sufer9ing there.....and so...shouldn these remarks be taken as innocent ones!? and maybe he was just an emotional hindu who got caried away.....and plus our media always has this habbit of blowing things out of proportion...
check these two sites

http://www.varungandhi.org/
http://www.varungandhi.net.in/

these websites may give an insight on this side of the stiory...

SO as it is always said...EVERY COIN HAS TWO SIDES

these two sides have kinda confused me...my former view is the stronger(wrote more lines abt it....lol)

so ppl...what do you think...does he really deseve the Z+ security.....

'SUNK'en Friend'SHIP'

2009-06-30T06:30:00.000-07:00

well....this is the result of what happens to a person who loves to sleep in class but wants to do something in order to avoid it in a class which he finds interesting but still wants something better to do

'SUNK'en FrienD'Ship'

She wasnt the most beautiful one around;
but still the one who was my smile;
Friend she was the best one;
Time immemorial though it was only a year;
All her pretty troubles,were mine to solve;
All my personal problems were hers to advise;
Though not at the forefront, i was always there;
Things seemed the best of it;
Her b'day was a months planning;
A day happy she was , or was I;
The innumerable phone calls vivid in my memory;
As though they had just happened;
Things at peak always fall down;
Ignorant of the fact as I was;
My concern turned out to be my fault;
White were my intentions,Not black;
When everyone said warn her, i said shut up to them;
And asked her to go ahead;
When i finally warned her;she didnt even say that;
She wouldn say anything after that;
Forgotten i had ,that she had an intellect too;
Maybe much mature than mine;
Trusted her i should as i did before;
But a minute's a mistake, a lifetime of remorse;
Her decisions were hers, ad not mine to advise upon;
There it broke,there it ended;
The friend'ship' just sunk;
An year of close joy,confidancy,revelry;
A moment of abrupt end;
Some say i dont deserve her friendship;
Some say she doesnt deserve mine;
As the best things turned Sour;
Octal months have passed since;
My friendship had all;
But turned my worst failure;
Lessons learnt!? i dont kno!!;
Happy she is that I know;
Moving ahead with a smile just I am...................................................

30/6/09

VIRGINITY & its perennial bias in the world around me

2009-06-20T13:12:00.000-07:00

okay i know that this is a topic which comes under the category called as taboo.
but then why not discuss it out in the open...
i feel god has been the most inglorious and ungenerous when he decided on allocating virginity to both the sexes.

a mans if he loses his virginity is unbothered coz no1 is ever gonna find out ,
but a woman if she loses her virginity, there is a clear indication about it(for those who dont kno...this might be an above 18 post...and if ur above 18 and u still dont kno...god help u)

why this bias by god?!
why did he do this...why this partiality...
didnt he know the ramifications abt this?!
didnt he know that it would make women the weaker sex..
didnt he know how chauvinistic it would make the males around1!?
was he that dumb!?or was there a meaning to it!? i dont think so...

one of my really close friends once said to me...

he said that he would want his wife to be a virgin....but the fact was that he himself was not a virgin....so nw if he had a break up wid his gurlfriend....then!?
even then he would want his WIFE to be a virgin....thats so styupid..
then he asked me....what about me.?then i told him...that if i was a virgin i would expect my wife to be a virgin...if i wasnt...i wouldnb expect the same from her...

and he was bamboozled...and started calling me a moron...

this problem has even affected the religions...whw did mary have to be a virgin...how can mary be a virgin if she gave birth to jesus?

i firmly believe that GOD WOULD NOT BREAK HIS OWN LAQWS IN ORDER TO PROVE HE IS "GOD"....

i dont kno...but i kinda feel that the whole concept is partial and wierd....
god...in this one policy...wantedly or unwantedly made the female gender weaker...and the males superior...

there a variety of thoughts that go in mmy mind regarding this...but i guess it would not be right on my part to jot them down here....coz this issue has to be thought upon...and these thoughts experienced....

please have a thought over this topic....

regards...
confused me...

and today at 11 in the morning is vivek anna's condolence meeting....
pray for his soul(13 days since he left the mortal world along with sanchita's dad...pray for him too...r.i.p.)...

'TEARY EYED'- a tale of missed purse,an auto rikshaw and two funerals

2009-06-10T10:21:00.000-07:00

well for starters i kno that my second post was not supposed to be this...but certain events over that past 36 hours have kind of compelled me to go into introspection and write this.....

it was around 10.30 in the morning when i had finally decided with zohran that i would meeting him opposite to our old school sboa at 11..30(which naturally means 12)...so after having a quick bath and finishing my brunch i left my house at 11.20(pretty early by my standards)...i had decided not trouble the bike for a day and thought of paing the public transport a visit which was kinda long due. as soon as i stepped out of my house , i had no idea that i it was the beginning of one of the most gloomiest 36 hours for me..as there is no straight bus to anna nagar frm my place...i caught a share auto and went to cmbt..(central moffusil bus terminus,koyembedu...asia's largest bus terminus)...which happens to be just a stop away from my place. As soon as i reached there, i was in for one rude shock. I realized that i had left my purse in my house itself and all i had was a mere 10 rs.(by this time zohran had already reached the school). so after paying 7 rs to the share auto guy, all i was left with was a mere 3 bucks!! So i decided that in case i get a bus i would catch it orr else walk back home...which would be abt 3 kms and 15 mins.well the bus did come, but then i t crossed me...i made a dash for it...suddenly the usain bolt in me came to the fore and i was as fast the motobike trinh to whiz by me.(lol..)...but then i guess the michael shumacher in the bus driver had arisen and he drove the bus at such a speed that would make even a honda unicorn whizzing at 90 kph feel shy...so..I missed the bus...then was i was walking by, an idea came into my mind that i should catc an auto rickshaw ...go home and then take the same one back to cmbt(with the purse firmly entrenched in my pockets). the total distance would have been 1 km to home(i had already walked a lot) and and 3 kms from there to cmbt...so that means a total distance 4 kms...my reasonble mind told me that the total trip should not cost more than 30 bucks or at most a pricely 40. I waved my hands and made an auto guy stop...i told himwhere i wanted to go...The bloody moronical asshole asked my 70 bucks for the whole trip....i just walked away from that place...then that moron comes again and stops and stats pilfering insults at me....ll the oths devs puls type abuses(tamil equivalent of english biggies)...i still kept walking awa from that place.,...and then he tried to hit me with his hand...i just caught his hand...and then began my rajnikanth style STARE....he just drove away from that place pilfering a few more abuses...i had already lost 5 minutes in that bargain....then after i going home i finally reach home anna nagar.....at a good 12.30...which is almost an hour behind sched...there me and zohran hang out for a while before heading to our usual hangout ..cafe coffee day or ccd...i recieved a call in the meanwhile...and i didnt pick it up...it was from pratyush....i was kinda surprised...coz that guy rarely calls me...so when i tried to return his call ...but his phone was outta range...so i entered ccd thinking it was not an inportant missed call to worry about...after spending about an hour there...me and zohran left or nokia carse so that i could give my phone for service(bledy hell!! gonna cozt me 12oo bucks for repairs)...after which he dropped me in my house...stayed for a while and left ....

it was around 4.30 now and i had to leave for my youth wing...CHINMAYA YUVA KENDRA....i was supposed to attend a meeting with a top management consultant who happend to be a mission member himself...the meeting was regarding the MARH-CHENNAI FAMILY QUIZ.. a quiz where more than 1 LAKH families would be taking part and in the process increase their family harmony...being 1 of the twenty team leaders involved in the whole process...it was kinda interesting meeiting new ppl and honing my skills..(CHYK has taught me a lot in the past few years)....so when i reached the CHINMAYA HERITAGE CENTRE,harrington road,chetpet which happended to be the hub of all chyk activities...i never knew i was in for one of the biggest shocks of my recent past...or should i say 1 of the 2 big shocks i would be facing in the the next few hours...
Sanchita...who happened to be one of the first persons i got to know at chyk...her father had passed away in the morning...this news really took some time to sink in...and its then i realized PRATYUSH's call about 3 hous back must have been regarding this...since i was among the few ppl who stay close to her house ...he would have wanted to inform me the news...shit man...i should have picked up that call...i immediately messaged samyuk and ranit since i was pretty much sure that they would be at sanchita's place as they were pretty close to her and also styed nearby....and conveyed my condolences.....during my scheduled meeting ..i recieved a text from samyuk asking me to come over...so once the meeting got over which was abt 8 in the night i dashed or her place....once i was there...i just wasnt me...i always had this thing in me...i cannot...i just cannot face ppl who have lost there dear ones...call it cowardice..or i may say that its coz that i feel for them a lot and share their pain...so i asked samyuk to come out and take me in...once in side..i just couldn take the scene over there...i really wanted to burst out crying ut then the tears just managed not to trickel dow....sanchita was there...i couldn go and speak to her...i just nodded my head on seeing her and bowed down...i guess ya...this is cowardice...then i went on to meet m other fiends who already been there...rinky pooja and samarpana were the others who hadbeen there apart from ranit and samyuk...we just stayed the night there trying to cheer up sanchita in the process...and i on my part had begun the introspection...we had recently staged a play called DEATH. we showed tht a person dies when he has to and nothing can change it. and that FUNERAL was REAL FUN....where a soul meets eternity after fulfilling its purpose of living in the world...and in case its vasanas ...its strong desires had not been completed...it takes a rebirth...as someone else...somewhere else....but then were we able to apply thqat logic here practically...i dint kno the answer...i could see ppl crying...i could share their pain..infacts tear are trickling down my ears as i rite this....old women coming down and sharing thier grief...uncles standing by...trying to control their emotions....and whenver a phone call came... sanchita would again burst into tears..this was really a bit too much too handle for the poor gurl...she had alway been a stong gurl...she had pretty strong views...ad to see her breaking down made me cry too...but then i quicklywiped them off before any1 seeing it....in the morning...at around 5...we never knew that we would one more shock in store for us...vivek anna..who was ram anna's brother(both highly acive menbers of chyk)...had passed away in the nite...due to a massive heart attack...he was just 29...this shock was kinda tuf to handle for sanchita and pooja..who were pretty close to vivek anna...sanchita couldn take it...we couldn take it....2 shocks in a single day.. y te hell did this have to happen...why did god have 2 good souls away from us!?...we decided that once the rituals were over at sanchita's place...we would move straight to vivek anna's place...it was really a bit hard for sanchita and pooja...i felt like crying...wished god could reverse time..god...god...y did u have to be so rude.....y god ...y?

once the rituals were over at her place...we moved on to chetpet...vivek anna's place...every1 includin shankar...who came down from bengaluru...went over...even there...i couldn go and talk to ram anna...his eyes were dreary...his younger brother had passed away...i had always considered ram anna as the epitome of manhood...and the way he handled all the visiting ppl mesmerized me...its just that...i couldn go and talk to him...just the head nodding again...samarpana ranit and samyuk were consoling pooja who was really hurt....meanwhile i met the other chyks who had been here since the morning....again i was introspecting death .....i wish i could really share what i concluded....but i guess they just dont translate into words...maybe 1 has to experience the pain himself and observe...on a personal note...i really liked vivek anna a lot...during one of our trips(which happens to be my only 1 till now...courtesy exams)...he had shoed that wondeful camera of his...and he was really gr8 at taking pics....and he was real fun to be around...it was aroun 3.15 when swamiji (our youth wing head) finally arrived...he had flew down all the way from pune once he heard the news of these deaths...when he me ram anna and hugged him tight...........something happened which i never thought would...the man had broken, down...he was crying...his loud roars of unhappiness and helplessness at the loss of younger brother filled the air....i just couldn take it...and i for the first time in 24 hours...fianlly broke down....and i started crying..i couldn see ram anna crying like that..i will nver forget that scene in my life ever....i took me abt 5 to 10 mins to get back and help the ppl with proceedings....one they had taken the body away for cremation....we decided that we would leave our homes...and decide for the later ...later....
midway to my journey home(a good 24 hrs plus since i left it)...my tank beacame empty....and i pushed it for abt 2.5-3 kms before reaching the pump..all the way dfrom ANNA ARCH to the KOYEMBEDU junction...and i finally reached home at abt 5 in the evening...

I WILL NEVER FORGET THE PAST 36 HOURS OF MY LIFE....

P.S...it is said BUDDIHSM celebraTes death...i am planning to research a bit on it....

ALL NAMES WRITTEN HERE ARE NOT CORRECT AND HAVE BEEN CHANGED....

ThE InDiAn PoLiTics!!!

2009-06-06T10:07:00.000-07:00

The Indian politics....is nothing but PORNOGRAPHY , FISH MARKET,OPPORTUNISM & CIRCUS PUT TOGETHER!!!

ya thats right....alL one does do is sell ones body or conscience for a certain amount of bucks....do trading for votes power and seats by the black money...and runs amok without taking credibilty even for the words' sake...

PORNOGRAPHY:
so what does one do in pornography?!?!if u happen to be one of those pure ones who doesn even know what it means...fret not...coz thats what happens in our famous indian politics. in pornography we have women strutting thier stuff and getting the hell f**ked out of themselves. all this for the pleasure of the person watchin this on screen while keeping one of his hands busy....

now you might be thinking what does this have to do with politics?!?

in polictics ...just replace the performer with a politician,. all he does is act. so that he gets the money by fooling the general public....well its not that most of the politicians dont have a conscience ...

they do have it...but they sell it of...just like a pornstar or prostitute sells off her body...these guys sell of thier conscience...

according to me and my imperfect intellect....a politician is supposed to join a party which has ideals similar to his....maybe change his party once in a while if he thinks that his ideals within the party have been compromised...

but is that the case with some of the politicians?!?!

lets take this case of a particular politician from karnataka...believe me...in his entire political career he has joined as many partires as the fingers in one hand...and that to so frequently that one might be mistaken that it might be a different person in a defferent party....but my research always proved it that it was da same person....

so what is this...aint that a case of sale of his conscience?!?

FISH MARKET:

well i am a vegitarian.....so i haven visited a fish market yet...but thanks to my skl teachers...i kno what a fish market means...

the parliament in the last few years has become the biggest symbol of UNRULINESS in the country...with so many forced adjournments by the people seated over there....i just feel agonized seeing my dad's tax money flowing to the gutter...it takes a hella lot amount of money to run a parliament....but where is the time for running it..

PROTESTING AT THE SPEAKER'S CHAIR IS THE LAMEST PROTEST I HAVE EvER SEEN...IF UM MORONS WANT TO HAVE A DHARNA...WHY DONT U DO IT OUTSIDE THE MARKET...OOPS...SORRY... THE PARLIAMENT...

I seriosly wish those good olden days of the indian parliament are bacek...

and i guess with the upa haveing a comfortable majority....and the left nowhere in right left or centre to disturb the economic reforms.....think it should be easy if not a breeze for the parliament to function..

OPPURTNITISM:
this is almost same as the pornographgy section...people chagin parties...parties changing alliances in the coalition era....all by compromisin their ideals.....

i just dont understand how a national party can join hands with a regional party which it had accused of being part of a plan of assasinating its revered leader....

i just don understand how a party can be a part of three different alliances in three different years(consecutive ones)

THE CASH VOR VOTES scandal did leave a mark on me...it was the most shameful event in the history of indian democracy....

AND it was also a case of opportunitism....

CIRCUS:

man o man!!...this is seriously the most funny part of my inaugral blog....what happens in a circus...well we all kno...most of us would have been to one...people doing hillarious stuff...

so when parties annoint thier sUns or daughters as thier legal heirs ....we the educated ppl are supposed to accept this circus...but thenthier is nothing we can do...

we dont even kno whether these dynastical heirs even have the talent and the power required to take over the reins...
one exception is there...i must say this....RAHUL GANDHI DID PROVE HIUS METTLE IN THE ELECTIONS...he was a major factor in the congress' victory...

and ya one more hillarity ....

there are certain ppl here in politics...whose only claim to fame is that their grand parents had been great leaders....so there they are...being sidekicks to the majr national players now
...a better word...poonchadi...or chamcha....
in my language...MORONS....irrespective of the gender....(wow...i would loe to take names here)

but i do salute those people who have made a mark ...and proved thier mettle...inspite being from a political background...and not taking things lightly.....

the SILVER LINING:

OH YEA....THERE DOES EXIST ONE...these new crop of politicians....the younger generation...does make me smile with hope..

P.S...This is sort of a disclaimer...i aint pointing fingers to any person directly....but...this is what the confused indian thinks...and this is what many othr confused indians think...

My next post is on VIRIGINTY-Its perennial bias in INDIA...

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HeLlO EvErYOne...

2009-05-29T10:35:00.000-07:00

well...hi to everyone out over there...this is the confused Indian youth here....there are many thing people of my age in in my country are confused about..be it careers...relationships...politics...movies...or even virginity....honesty etc....

i will pulling u those issues in way which would be portray the confusions endured by us....I gues these articles will make people think...whether what is the norm is right or not...or is it good to break out and rebel against them....

adios!!!